“Inner Dialogue” portrays my feelings about Crohn’s Disease and how a flare exaggerates the love/hate relationship I have with my body. It’s difficult to sort out how to feel about my own body attacking itself. Frustration is common obviously, but I also feel betrayed and guilty a lot of the time. In a way, Crohn’s is me hurting myself, yet I am powerless to do anything about it. I resent my body when I am sick, but at the same time, I am going through all of this to try to save it. It’s like trying to help out your own abuser. During a flare, the mental game is critical, but sometimes difficult to sustain.